This has been a peculiar day - I’ve met Gine for the first time since we crashed and burned miserably last year. Since then we’ve both moved on and found someone else to spend that quality time with. But meeting her again was still really odd, I’ll tell you that. I guess it’s because she is someone I saw almost every single day for three years and then suddenly had no contact with for a long time.
I’ve got to be honest here and admit that it’s all a little bit depressing, although I’ve come to realize that I have no clue what “depressing” really means. Still you get the idea. I don’t think I get this feeling because me and Gine is not together anymore - I suspect that we would have broken up eventually anyway because we were too often on different planets both mentally and in terms of the way we communicated with each other - it’s more that we spent those three years together and then “suddenly” it was all over.
I’m tired of making good memories with people I suddenly can’t or won’t spend time with. I don’t know why, but it just seems like such a waste of time and honest effort.
It’s possible I think this way because of the relationship I’m currently in. Will that also be another three years of making good memories - we’ve already made quite a few - and then it’s all over and we’re both back to square one? It’s impossible to tell, but I guess that’s just one of the risks you take. There is no way of telling the future, even though that would often have been preferable. It would have been preferable most of the time.
All the negative thinking aside, it’s going very well so far with me and the missus. We’ve dated for a while and officially became a more serious item - or “boyfriend and girlfriend” as the kids call it - about a month ago. In that time we’ve done a lot of things together, including winning a small stuffed cow and traveled to Spain for a short week. It’s all been good times so far, and even though there have been a few minor bumps along the way, we’ve been able to clear them more or less immediately. I’ve met her parents a few times and this weekend I’m taking her home to meet mine for Tomas’ and Ingeborg’s wedding.
It’s always interesting to see how a new girlfriend clicks with friends and family, but that Klas has already label her as “a catch” is a very good start. I have to say I agree with that description.
So, in conclusion, I think we have great potential. Here’s to making the best of it and the future - even though you can’t tell the future, there is no need to be scared of it.
I’ll close this entry with a one-liner from the collection that I’m particularly fond of because I think tells a lot of truth in few words:
Everything is always okay in the end. If it’s not okay, it’s not the end.
By the way, I don’t think that this means that if it’s okay, it’s the end. Just in case you wondered.
2009-09-06 20:37 CET