I’m not sure how to write this without sounding like a total dick, so I’ll just write it: I’ve always considered myself rather creative. As a kid I drew a lot, nothing particularly great, but my production was impressive. I’m guessing there are quite a few boxes hidden in my parent’s attic filled with my drawings, which was mostly, for no particular reason, of war. Huge theaters of killing and maiming made up of several drawings taped together.
This site is also a result of my sporadic creativity. Although my posting has become less and less frequent, I’m still pumping out a little something-something every now and then. I also have a job where I have to be creative or wither and die. As a computer programmer, you continuously have to solve intricate problems that all demand some sort of creative solution.
But I was on my most creative from 1995 to 2000 when I composed music. The Amiga and PC music scene was exploding with talent, and I rode the shock wave. With the help of FastTracker 2, tons of samples downloaded from the internet and the inspiration from thousands of other basement musicians, I – using the artist names HYPERSPACE, Milo and Timid – crammed out almost 40 tracks over that five year period.
But before we continue, let’s have a look at another guy who I guess looked at himself as a pretty creative guy expressing himself through music.
I had three heights in my short musical career. The first was when I went to a party where I was approached by a guy I’d never seen before. He was so drunk he could hardly stand or talk, but he was very happy to see me because they’d played some of my electronica at a party he’d been to earlier that night and they’d had a very good time. Of course might never have been another party, it could just have been him, drinking by himself in his mother’s basement – but the point was that he’d enjoyed listening to something I’d made, and that sure felt good to hear. The song was called “TechnoHead“.
The second peak came with lyrics and vocal. Except from a few vocal samples, all my music was exclusively instrumental. This is partly because I wrote unbelievable cheesy lyrics1, but mostly because I can’t sing. I have a terrible voice, and there’s a fair chance I wouldn’t be able to sing a pure tone to save my own life. But there is still one exception to my “exclusively instrumental” rule. The second to last tune I ever completed was an actual song, with lyrics and all. Of course, I was not the one who did the singing, that was some random guy from Australia I met on an online forum. But I wrote the lyrics. Oh. My. God, the lyrics. The singer couldn’t actually sing very well, either, but the end result wasn’t that bad. The song was called “Breathe“.
My third and final height came with my brief appearance on the Norwegian radio show DJ Friendly. It’s a typical morning show, playing mostly chillout and ambient tracks from 5 to 7 on Saturday and Sunday mornings. As you can imagine from when it’s on, the show doesn’t have tons of listeners, but it’s been on Norwegian radio for as long as I can remember. I was unable to find exactly how long, but I’m pretty sure it’s been at least ten years, maybe as long as 15. To me, getting a tune played on DJ Friendly was a pretty big deal, even if it was just five minutes of a two hour radio show on a random Sunday. The song was called “As The Sunlight Hit Her Face“.
I’ve managed to salvage all my musical creations from old backup discs, and I’m putting everything here. I wouldn’t recommend that you download and listen to it all, because that would just be a waste of your time. But at least now I’ve saved everything from the inevitable doom of broken backup CD-Rs. Everything is listed in chronological order, and it’s actually possible to hear that things change for the better over the years.
|Freelance Matrix||1995||Techno piano tune with very heavy use of vocal samples.||XM | MP3|
|Response||1995||My second tune. Not sure which genre this one falls into.||XM | MP3|
|Camilla||1995||Piano ballad I dedicated to my primary, secondary and high school crush. I’m such a romantic.||XM | MP3|
|Velocity||1995||First use of guitar, which is so out of tune I was either tone deaf or didn’t give a damn. Most likely the former.||XM | MP3|
|Babylon 5||1995||I was a huge Babylon 5 fan, and here’s my Babylon 5 song. I think the reason why I gave it that particular title was that I really struggled with titles and mostly named songs based on what I was thinking of when I needed a title.||XM | MP3|
|TechnoHead||1995||This was the party song. Dance floor filla!||XM | MP3|
|In the Jungle||1995||Pianos featuring what I think is a screaming monkey.||XM | MP3|
|Agony||1995||Another (industrial) guitar out of tune, but this time I think it’s on purpose, believe it or not.||XM | MP3|
|30 min crap!||1995||Crap produced in 30 minutes.||XM | MP3|
|Tempic Topic||1995||My usual approach when making my music was to randomly bang on the keyboard and put layer upon layer of tracks on top of each other. This is very obvious here.||XM | MP3|
|Theme Park||1995||Oh, Theme Park. I played the hell out of that game. This is my tribute to Bullfrog’s masterpiece.||XM | MP3|
|Short X-Mas Rock||1995||There’s nothing Christmassy about this song, except that I made it around Christmas.||XM | MP3|
|Shadowrun (2)||1996||Since this song is titled (2), I’m suspecting there should be a Shadowrun (1) track somewhere but I can’t find it. The title comes from the table-top roleplaying game Shadowrun, which I spent hours and hour playing with my friends back in the days.||XM | MP3|
|Lonely?||1996||Piano/guitar rock ballad.||XM | MP3|
|Ohya!||1996||My first tune experimenting with variable speed, a technique used by many great demo scene musicians.||XM | MP3|
|Relax…||1996||I dare you to listen to this tune and not get relaxed.||XM | MP3|
|Turning Insane!||1996||Released the day after the previous song, “Relax…”, this tune is more on the other end of the psyocholigcal scale.||XM | MP3|
|Camilla (2nd Edit)||1996||Oh, my crush on Camilla, the petite brunette who really started to fill out her clothes during the second summer of secondary school just wouldn’t pass. Here’s my second dedication to her that she never heard.||XM | MP3|
|Too bad…||1996||More piano and guitars. I’m not sure why, but I used a lot of piano and guitars, a combination that you won’t hear that much on the top 20 charts.||XM | MP3|
|Deep Blue Sea||1996||Slow, dreamy and a bit orchestral.||XM | MP3|
|All the Demons in my head||1996||As every great artist, I struggled with my inner demons (not really). This song uses a single violin sample, which is a welcome change from some of my other songs.||XM | MP3|
|Daydream||1996||Nice beat, somewhat uninspired and cuts out after one minute.||XM | MP3|
|Entering Innocence||1996||The title of this song doesn’t make much sense. That’s creative freedom.||XM | MP3|
|Happy Days||1996||Happy piano tune with birds.||XM | MP3|
|Los Mios||1996||Relaxed release that actually high quite high rotation on my own playlist back then. From Los Mois and onwards, it feel a bit like there was a rise in quality in my releases. It might have been that I started using fresher samples, but I’ve got the feeling I was actually on to something.||XM | MP3|
|Pantheon||1996||Pantheon is a building in Rome. Why this song is titled Pantheon, I have no idea. This song is my first where I’m using my own samples, ripped from a Deep Forest CD.||XM | MP3|
|Fumble||1996||One of my better compositions. It’s a pan flute and a drum solo in there, but it’s tight!||XM | MP3|
|Nature Calls the Innocent||1996||Dark, slow rock. Just right for the next vampire block buster. Call me!||XM | MP3|
|No Mezzo||1996||A saxophone. Some poeple don’t like it, I love it. At this point, I’d actually read some musical theory, and I’m guessing the title of this song plays on mezzo-soprano, even if there are no vocals.||XM | MP3|
|I Wanna Kill My AWE!||1996||I had a lot of problems with my Creative Soundblaster AWE soundcard, and this is probably me channelig my frustrations.||XM | MP3|
|Except the Unexpected||1996||A piano song that takes a very unexpected turn.||XM | MP3|
|Can’t Stop this Feelin’||1996||Heavy use of pre-recored guitar samples. I didn’t record them, though. They are a bit out of tune. There’s also a lady screaming out of tune. Most of this song is out of tune, it seems.||XM | MP3|
|Nymphet – l i v e||1996||This song isn’t recorded live of course, but I found a sample of a cheering crowd and it sort of just happened to sound live.||XM | MP3|
|U r b a n||1996||A guitar heavy track. A few pre-recorded samples, but mostly me playing “free hand” on the keyboard.||XM | MP3|
|NighFlight 204||1996||Another relaxing song with a bass track I remember I was particularly pleased with.||XM | MP3|
|Slow Down||1997||Very heavy use of samples from the song “Slow Down” by the Norwegian band The September When. Hell, I even stole their song title.||XM | MP3|
|War-Dance (KIA)||1997||I suspect I imagined writing the end credits for a massive Hollywood war movie.||XM | MP3|
|Breathe||1999||This is my lyrics attempt with the Australian on vocals.||XM (instrumental) | MP3 | MP3 (instrumental)|
|As The Sunlight Hit Her Face||2000||Ambient. This was the song played on the DJ Friendly radio show. As most ambient tunes, it’s too long and gets a bit boring towards the end. And when you think it’s over, it’s not.||XM | MP3|
The song files are available in both MP3 and their “native” XM format. They will probably sound their best when played as XM files using FastTracker 2. But it’s a rather obscure piece of software and you probably don’t have it installed. So MP3s might be a good option for most people. But if you want to use the XM files, you can use VLC, which you might already have installed. From what I can hear, it plays back the XM pretty accurate, but in some cases things might sound really weird even if it’s not intended – some samples are very out of tune. It’s also possible to use foobar2000 with the DUMB Module decoder component installed.
If I had actually pursued music, gone all in and learned to play an instrument, I honestly believe that I could have done not-too-bad, and been one of the many, many aspiring musicians you find on YouTube, all hoping to pull a Justin Bieber.
But in all honest, I’m sort of glad I didn’t, because not pursuing music enabled me to focus on being a nerd, and that has certainly taken me places I never imagined I’d ever go. And poor Justin Bieber turned into a dick.
- If you listen to the lyrics from
manymost popular songs, both those popular today and those popular in the past, you’ll realize that lyrics are mainly cheesy. Only the really great musicians manage to combine both deep, meaningful lyrics with music that makes the hairs in the back of your neck rise.